Jesus Just Cleaned My Closet

Graham has a great story that he's used frequently this year.  It's about a wild dream where Jesus seems mad at him, shouting  "Give Me back My stuff!"  But Graham doesn't know what "stuff" He means and is overwhelmed.  Finally, Jesus explains, "All that anxiety, fear, worry... I paid for it.  I died for it.  Give Me back My Stuff!"  Then Jesus explains softly, "I want to give you My peace, My joy, My life instead.  Please, give Me back all that other stuff. It isn't yours anyway."

 

I've heard Graham do this story in a room with a thousand people and in a circle of 14 leaders... and the impact remains stunning.  It's a powerful example of God's passion for us to live in the fullness of what Jesus died to give us.

 

But I learned recently, that God is quite delighted to go rummaging around the closets of my life for "stuff" that I don't even know is there.  Of course, in a magnificent moment of inspiration several months ago, I gave Him permission.  I impulsively rewrote the last line of my inheritance word in Psalm 139 and changed it from "Try me and know my anxieties" to "Run through my life with joyful abandon.  Throw open my closet doors and bring Your light to things I don't even know I've hidden away." 

 

Yup, I actually wrote that of my own free will. 

 

So why should I be surprised when I think I'm sailing along in my process of living a stellar Kingdom life and discover, "Oh my... that's not God's perspective".  Followed closely by "Ouch! I really think like that?"  Sigh.  Time to give back some stuff.

 

The years of hearing Graham say: "No shame. No Blame.  God doesn't do that" has actually taken hold.  Repentance has become the joy of turning and going another way.  God really doesn't see what's wrong, He only sees what's missing and He has every intention of providing it.  Those are life giving words to remember on the day your angel is desperately trying to trade your card in heaven for another, less challenging assignment.

 

I would like to think that I would see the missing pieces of my life through academic observation.  But the reality is, it's often the stumbles along the way that bring the obstacles to light.  I'm trying to forge ahead and Jesus is saying:

 

 "Wait!  There's some stuff here that you will trip you up in the future. See that anxiety (you call it "concern")? Why don't you give that back to Me? It's causing you to completely miss My heart in this. And that need to have all your ducks in a row? I thought you got rid of that last year? Let's let the ducks out for a run.  You'll be fine."

 

I realize once again that I'm the only one that's shocked to see the gaps in my life.  God already knows they're there and He's glad to have an opportunity to get some more of His stuff back.  Good friends can see the gaps too and have a way of coming along side to say, "You're better than this".  They are grace-filled accelerants to the process of maturity.

 

So my internal space has more room today than yesterday.  Jesus is smiling and I have a new journey to take.  This was just a beginning, not an ending.  There are fresh mindsets to explore and establish and new discoveries about the true nature of God that I will behold and eventually become.

 

There's room for all that, now that the "stuff" is no longer cluttering up my closets.


mini logo ~ Allison 

Comments

Yes I know exactly what you mean - Holy Spirit has been cleaning out my closets lately also and showing me stuff that I needed to give back to Jesus - burning that unwanted and unneeded stuff (its ugly and stinky) into ashes and exchanging it for the beauty of Jesus. Upgrades to my character - renewing my mind and purifying my heart. He does it with such love and kindness but I do initially feel the "ouch" in my shock at what He is revealing to me about myself which was previously hidden from my view but not His - Wow! He saw it all the time and loved me anyway! Amazing love! Amazing grace! I am so grateful and falling more in love with Jesus as I learn once again to embrace the process. I am also learning to enjoy the journey one day and one moment at a time - seeing it as an adventure - walking, running, dancing on water (His Word) with Jesus laughing and singing together. Learning to live from the inside out, from victory not toward it... Thank you Graham for sharing that story/dream about giving Jesus back His stuff at a meeting I recently attended - another life changing truth! God bless you all :)

Ha! "Concern"=anxiety, gulp!

when did my closet become so biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig...?

Recognising the trash in my life is not my problem. My problem is handing it over to God and yet seeing the trash remaining in my life...like worry and anxiety to start with. Just saying, "Jesus take my anxiety", hasn't worked for me.

I may be in the same boat, Rob. I'm not really sure what the 'handing over' or 'trading anxiety for hope' process is. I believe and want to stop being anxoius but 'asking God to take it away' hasn't worked for me to date.

Hey Rob and Reg,

I have delt with what you guys are talking about and I realized there is no one method or formula to these kinds of things. Like Graham always talks about: Everything God does in His kingdom is relational. So you we each have to get alone with the Holy Spirit and ask Him to take these things out of our life in the way He has planned out for us specifically. Recently He took me on a 2 to 3 day journey of uprooting some roots of sin in my life and it was almost like he did surgery. He gave me revelation on where the issues where rooted, He layed me down and I could tangibly feel things coming out from the past and I now Tangiblely experience the reality of Him taking these roots out of my life. 

I hope this helps you guys :) Have an Awesome day!

i am learning a lot these days about cleaning out my own closet....etc..i use  to be pretty good at giving all my concerns to God, than in an instant, I'd take everything back.  My closet was exploding with so much STUFF!   I finally found a great pair of  shears that has cut away all the excess baggage from my closet and now I am expieriencing such freedom.....it's just AWESOME!  I must admit though that since I have removed all that older clutter...I am beginning to see the other hidden clutter that lied beneath what I had recently cleaned out!  Ughhh ....it's a lot of work but needless to say that for me, it is now a lot easier to do house cleaning.  I am able to see the remaining clutter now with a lot more clarity than ever before, and even though this is a process, I am forever greatful to honestly admitt that for the  very first time in my life I am set free from bondages that has plagued my life for over 44 years.  Due to the sensitivity of my own stuff, I will keep this personal for now,

I am experiencing a new and wonderful relationship with DAD than I have ever Really had before, and I am so STOKED!  It really is true...PEACE is REAL! All the time!

I Love you JESUS!

Hi. Please give me the name of the MP3 file where Graham is teaching about this (I mean this dream with the Lord) so I could pay and download this. Thanx

I remember when Graham told this dream in Dallas. I sat there stunned. WOW! I had never thought of my worry, fear, anxiety, etc as Jesus' stuff. It has been life-changing to reposition my heart and thinking to be ever-conscience in not allowing myself to carry these overwhelming things any longer. I've shared Graham's dream countless times with others so they can have that aha moment too. It has been so liberating indeed!

I first heard Graham give this message at the Aglow International Conference last year. I loved it but didn't realize what relevance it would later have for me. For about 4 months now I am being attacked with daily "stuff" in the AM. I pray daily this prayer and others until Jesus does "take back his stuff". Can you think of a more effective  prayer for this situation.

Thank you Allison!